[26 Jun 2006|09:03pm] HELLO my Name IS BRUCE!!!!!!! post comment

WAT TA FUCK!!!!????????? [01 Mar 2005|10:15pm] [ mood | AS FUCK/SLEEPY ] [ music | FOLSOM - BEEZOR BLUES ] OUR DISTANCE- I WANT TO SEE YOU HERE WITH ME. AND I WANT TO TELL YOU WHAT YOU MEAN TO ME. BUT I'LL SAVE THIS. I'LL SAVE MY BREATH THIS TIME.I THINK ITS ALMOST USELESS. WE BOTH KNOW. WE SAW THE SIGNS. STILL I AM ASKING WHY? I THINK I'M FAILING. I THINK I'M FAILING INSIDE. SO IS THIS STORY OVER OR HAS IT JUST BEGUN? YOU CAN ONLY WONDER. AND WE CAN ONLY WONDER. THESE DAYS HAVE BEEN TOO MUCH. I HATE BEING STUCK IN THE INBETWEEN. MEANS TO AND END. ME TAKING YOUR HAND. AND MOVING US AHEAD. I WISH THAT IT COULD LAST. CAUSE I STILL FEEL OUR PAST . WILL WE EVER FEEL THIS WAY AGAIN? CLOSE MY EYES AND I'LL BE DREAMING AWAY. IF THINGS WERE DIFFERENT I'D BE ABLE TO SAY. I'M STILL HERE. RE-THINKING. MY DECISIONS. OUR DISTANCE-SEPARATION. BUT IM STILL HERE... post comment

To Love Is To Lose..wat happend to you??? [21 Feb 2005|01:57pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | Hazen Street-Back Home ] -Caught In A Lie- I refuse to listen to anymore of your lies No longer to be trusted It's motherfuckers like you I despise One day the tables will be turned And all your bridges will be burned No one to turn to You can only blame yourself One minute you think you're on top of the heap We've seen through the lies - we know your talk is cheap It's all comin' - comin back around You've risen to the top Only to be knocked back down Now you know the reason for my hatred You see it in my eyes When you're down begging for forgivness Who will answer your crys? -Price You'll Pay- I'm fed up with the way you act Loyalty and honor is what you lack You're not loyal to yourself How can you be loyal to anyone else It's time - you open - open your eyes Or this time - you will - you will pay the price For betraying me And taking my trust for granted You lied to me again Look where you landed Right back in my face Talkin your way out Your true colors have shown and we know what your about It's time - you open - open your eyes Or this time - you will - you will pay the price You keep lyin to me Again and again Always talkin your shit But you still wanna be my friend You've got another thing coming You forgot what it's all about Stay true to your friends Or we will run you out. -Forever Gone- forever gone, suffer in deception as you learn the hardest truth. after all the confusion nothing seems familiar. what has been broken for so long can never be the same. this is how it will be until the day i die. i can'T turn back from here. how can i save myself with one foot in the grave? i wish i didn't know the things i fuckin know. what has been broken for so long can never be the same. -Never Look Back- i know its hard for me to see, the way things have come to be but i must leave it be. cant keep looking back, i dont know how to act. i dont know where to start, i know ive been here before. my conscience still believes that it was on me. my guilty heart bleeds dont want to feel this no more. so tell me something since youve done nothing except you lied to me. you said youd never leave, after all this i wanted to believe that you still care about my life. just tell me something so i can go in peace cuz we could not make that sacrifice. after all this i wanted to believe that you still care about me. its hard to see, but it must be, you take away a piece of me. i never take a step back, never look back. ive come to face the facts and i know where you stand. i wont take another step back, never look back. post comment

[28 Jan 2005|04:49pm] [ mood | HAPPY ] I'm always around you to show that I care but I don't know what for. It seems to me that you couldn't care less so I'm not going to do it anymore. I see no reason why I've placed such a value on you, but my thoughts have changed now, I've opened my eyes and now I'm through. Lookin' back at my short life, the few pleasures that I've found, all your misconceptions pummel me into the ground. Now, I look at your small life and it doesn't mean a bit. I pick myself up off the ground 'cause I don't give a shit. They say all good things come to an end, I wish this didn't apply. You were once someone I called my friend but that's all now changed and I don't know why. Things are very different now. You've got nothing to say. It' s sad when someone you know very well decides to fuckin' die and go away. --Been there, done that-- Knew it all, I thought I knew it all I knew nothing till it came to an end The time has come to make move in my life I’ve seen it happen all again and again Looking back on all the things that I did I have regrets, but that’s what it is So that was then and this is now I’ve seen it happen all again and again I’ve been there and done that – Look back Looking at life and where I’m at Where do I go from here – Think clear Is the question that we all fear Knew it all, I thought I knew it all I was blind until I opened my eyes Fuckin’ up is how you learn in this life Take that for granted and you’ll never survive Looking back on those things that I did I have regrets, but it is what it is That was then and this is now I’ve seen it happen all again and again I’ve been there and done that – Look back Looking at life and where I’m at Where do I go from here - Think clear Is the question that we all fear Think clear and look back Remember then and where you’re at What don’t kill you will make you strong There comes a time when you must move on I’ve seen a lot in my young age A lot has changed, memories remain the same There’s different ways this game is played Our violent ways have to end some day post comment

[16 Nov 2004|09:34am] [ mood | blank ] [ music | Out To Win ] Numb- Suffering from my own demons Where theres no feelings, there can't be pain Where theres no trust, theres no betrayal Where your taught not to care, all that grows inside is hate. Where their solution is violence, violence is your escape Suffering my own demons.Take a good look at what you've done to me Left alone, so i'll stay alone When you dont open up, theres nothing inside to break And if you let no one close,theres no one to push away So take a good look at what youve done to me Left alone, so i'll stay alone and in myself ill believe Cleanse Yourself- Crave. Crawl. Drench.Cleanse Cleanse yourself Commitment is dead. Purity is dead. Values are dead. Truths the enemy. Feelings the enemy. Innocence is the enemy BELIEVERS THE FOOL. LOYAL'S THE FOOL. Hope will destroy. Faith will destroy. Compassion destroys. Cleanse yourself. And you can cleanse yourself. You crave. You crawl. You're drenched. And you can cleanse yourself this is not to anyone just how it is sometimes post comment

[31 Oct 2004|08:13pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | BURIED ALIVE ] UNBROKEN- WHERE ARE YOU NOW? Hiding behind the mask of blatant fucking lies. I despise everything you once fucking said. Look into your eyes there's NOTHING LEFT. What have you become but a WHISPER IN THE WIND. Every word you said has been pissed away and ripped to shreds, TORN THE FUCK APART. Now we are left, with this epiphany. No sympathy and not one BROKEN HEART. For all the wrong reasons you won't be forgotten. I watched as it slipped through your fucking hands. It won't be a surprise if you're never SEEN AGAIN, but I will remain... UNBROKEN. WORHTLESS- you're worthless as you burn. everything about you makes me sick. your self satisfying ridicule makes me sick. condescending, contradictive. i wait for you to burn. choke on your tongue of lies. you burn. worthless. you're worthless as you burn. how does it feel? for so long you've torn away. how does it feel back in your face? NOTHING AT ALL- ease your mind with your simple life. don't tell me that you could never do this. it's plain to see the truth is you don't care. your words fade, your actions speak for themselves. in the end we both know you've doen nothing at all. all your excuses, excuses i defy. do you think that you're part of this? do you think that you've saved at all? actions speak for themselves. you've done nothing at all. sacrifice yourself. THIS ONE IS FOR ALL MY FRIENDS(good times thursday night home at 300am) AS ONE WE STAND- We rise to fight, as one we stand tonight! This is, this is our scene! it's what we breath, it's our reality, you'll never understand the way that we feel... Nothing to you but we hold it so dear, to live and breathe it truly is a way of life, a way to deal with life's pain and strife. Good times hanging out with all my friends, times like these we thought they'd never end... they never will, if you stay young at heart. The only way is if we let if fall apart, but I can't because I know every friday night it's HARDCORE, GOOD FRIENDS GOOD TIMES! and every Saturday night you know it's hardcore stagedives, high fives!!! BROKE AND BUMMED OUT Day late and a dollar short it's just the same shit on a different day too late for me to restart so I rise and face a brand new day Do what I got to do to get myself by that's just the way I was raised Appreciate everything I've got and pray for better days when I was broke and bummed out you helped me when I was losing my mind you saved me I'd do the same for you brother believe me! I'd fucking die for you! Brother believe me you're just as much a part of my family as time goes on good times unfold it doesn't matter if we're getting too old because hardcore is what we're all about drinking smoking weed and fucking hanging out same shit on a different day with friends by my side everything's ok and I wouldn't have it any other way! no way! I'd rather die than have no friends brothers under the skin, for life. We're brothers until the end I'd probably be dead already if it wasn't for my friends they helped me up when I was down and I'll be grateful until the end! thank you - my friends these memores will never end 6 comments|post comment

[19 Oct 2004|03:37pm] [ mood | also bored ] [ music | NO INNOCNET VICTIM!!! ] No Exceptions Dedication is what you lack I turn my head, pull that knife out of my back So many promises, and that is your one regret So many goals, now none will be met Don’t come to me looking for redemption Not this fucking time, there will be no exceptions You made your choice Took the easy way out That shit you pulled Is not what friendship’s about The same old story, Ive seen it before Take your lies, I can’t look at your face no more GO TO THIS: GO TO THIS SHIT ITS GONNA BE OFF THE HOOK!!! SUPPORT SOME LA HARDCORE OLD SKOOL STEEZZZ MVP October, 28 2004 at SHOW CASE THEATER 683 South Main St., Corona, CA 92882 Cost: XDEATHSTARX, MAKE MOVE, BLOOD STANDS STILL, NOT WITHOUT RESISTANCE, PLAGUE RED LETTER & MOST VIOLENT PLAYAS! .. SO COME EARLY AND SUPPORT US! YOU WONT BE DISSAPOINTED post comment

[04 Jul 2004|11:36pm] [ mood | weird ] We Were Invincible There is nothing left but ashes on this ground. Sometimes it’s hard to believe it’s all gone. Never thought I’d fall like this. All the work that we put in here. Here we stood so proud. Now it doesn’t matter. It’s all gone. Never thought I’d fall like this. It burns. The end began just when we thought we were invincible and there’s no way I’m ever going back. There’s no way I’m going back to how it was back then. Too many times I tried living in the past. Too many times I tried and failed. I tried and failed. found thse they are awsome i feel like this .........oh well post comment

[29 Jun 2004|02:21pm] STRIFE WAS FUCKING AWSOME!!!!! 1 comment|post comment

indecisions and suffocation [24 May 2004|09:21pm] [ mood | enthralled ] [ music | figure four ] It tastes so bitter sweet and I know everything it can do. Push and pull. You're taking me. Pushing me close to the edge. Solely known for what is done. Break the cycle. Turn away. It tasted so bitter sweet, but I know everything it can do. All the times I felt so cold. Did it ease the pain? My stomach left in knots and all I feel is pain. My head. A scattered mess. My world's a scattered mess. Can I turn away? It tastes so bitter sweet but I know everything it can do. I know I've seen what you can do, but I'll face this choice once again. There is nothing left to give away. It tastes so bitter sweet and I know everything it can do. Push and pull. You're taking me. Pushing me close to the edge. All the times I felt so cold. Will I ever break this hold? It tastes so bitter sweet but I know everything it can do. I know, I've seen what you can do. But I'll face this choice once again. ----Again with this shit(not really shit) 12 comments|post comment

"Words cannot express my disappointment.Words cannot express my disapproval" [21 May 2004|10:54pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | buried alive-nothing at all ] wats going on guys? damn i havent updated in years and if i did it was just lyircs which well about the only thing i could say about how i felt about things.well lately i havent done shit but school now shows cause im grounded but tommorow guess wat im fucking rolling to see the one and only FULL BLOWN CHAOS with the homies XBERETTAX which are also playing if you can take your ass to Studio S in Nhollywood 10$$ mothafuckas!!hit me up or anyone from the crew up if u have the numbers..i cant wait that shit is gonna be off the hook.. today was boring nothing special but tomorrow oHH SHIT haha i cant wait... damn i want to write soo much but then again i dont want some people reading my personal shit ahh fuck... post comment

"have no fear the white boy is here" [22 Apr 2004|09:36pm] [ mood | thoughtful ] [ music | reach the sky ] World Stand Still You can walk away whenever you want, but don't expect me to be here when you decide that you're coming back. But I'd rather stop talking to anyone, anyone but you, until then my world is standing still. You think I'm at a loss, but I'm not afraid to be alone anymore. The time moves on like pieces from my past never to look back again. I know what we shared and what it all meant but I'm never ever looking back. Although I keep trying to come up with the words to say to you, I'm not trying to win you back. There is only so much one person can take, but if you think I can't take this you are so wrong. But I am not afraid and I won't give in. You can walk away whenever you want, but don't expect me to be here when you decide that you're coming back. But I'd rather stop talking to anyone, anyone but you, until then my world is standing still. The time moves on like pieces from my past never to look back again. I know what we shared and what it all meant but I will move on as easily as I can forget. 11 comments|post comment

[12 Apr 2004|10:55pm] [ mood | discontent ] [ music | figure four-the loss ] Waste of time Wasted my time, you wasted your time on me Let’s face the facts that we must break clean Fucked with my mind, I was too blind to see So I waited patiently I will not stand by and try I cannot be by your side You drained the life out of me Livin’ in such misery Life is not kind, people are filled with greed You are no exception, you were no friend to me Fucked with my mind Took my self esteem and I waited anxiously What did you mean, you said you said you cared for me I was so naïve, I let you walk all over me I’ve gained courage, now I am So better off without you in my life You sold me out and through it all you fuckin’ Wasted my time. I’ve realized through all your lies you did not think too much of me You helped yourself and did not think to offer me your company The hurt inside will heal in time and that’s the price I have to pay And that’s just fine, I’ve done my time and now I’m glad to walk away cause after all, you fuckin’ wasted my time 5 comments|post comment

FUCK EVERYONE [29 Mar 2004|09:48pm] [ mood | FUCKING PIST ] [ music | HATEBREED-ANOTHER DAY ANOTHER VENDETTA ] WAT THE FUCK IM SOO FUCKING PISSED SOO MUCH SHIT AROUND ME AND ALL THE FUCKING FAKES FUCK THEM I DONT NEED THEM OR ANYONE ELSE THAT PUTS ON AN ACT TO PRETEND THEY ARE KOOL WITH ME FUCK THAT SHIT IM SOO TIRED OF THIS SHIT BE YOUR FUCKEN SELF!!TODAY WAS ALRIGHT EXCEPT FOR THA SHIT THAT IM PISSED OFF AT I FUCKEN HATE MY SCHOOL ITS THE WORST SHITHOLE WHERE NO ONE IS TO TRUST NOT EVEN MY SO CALLED "FRIENDS" IM GONNA DO MY FUCKING WORK AND GET THE FUCK OUT OF THERE I DONT LIKE WAT IM DOING IM NOT DOING SHIT I NEED TO FUCKING DO SOMETHING TO VENT MY ANGER I SOO MUCH AND I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH THAT SHIT!1 I DONT HAVE ANYONE TO VENT IT OUT ON MAYBE ONE BUT FUCK IT THINGS ARE DIFFERENT AND I KNOW THAT THE TIME HAS CHANGED THINGS. SOO MUCH FUCKING HATE I HAVE RIGHT NOW I DONT KNOW WAT TO DO. YEAH I PROBABLY SOUND LIKE A BITCH WHINNING BUT I DONT GIVE A FUCK...TOMMORROW TO FACE THE SAME FUCKING SHIT I DONT WANT TO FACE IT BUT FUCK IT ONLY MAKES ME STRONGER AND A MUCH BETTER PERSON..I KNOW IM NOT THE BEST WITH ATIITUDE OR ANYTHING ELSE BUT ITS NOT HARD TO TRY AND BE YOURSELF IF IM A FAKE TO PEOPLE THEN I GUESS I AM BUT I KNOW WAT I BELIEVE AND WHERE I GET MY SHIT FROM SO AGAIN IF YOU DONT LIKE ME THEN FUCK OFF AND DONT PRETEND CAUSE THINGS COME OUT!! FUCK YOU ALL Old To The New If you want respect , you gotta give it If your really hardcore , you gotta live it It's not a game or a fuckin trend Those who are true - are here to the end Handed down from the old to the new To make this last - we gotta stay true Stick by your friends no matter what Gotta stay string - never give up Stick by your friends No matter what Never give up! I don't know where I'd be if I wasn't in the scene To my friends old & new - you're like family This is all I've got in this world of shit Stay true to what you got - always represent Handed down from the old to the new We built this scene - the rest is up to you Handed down from the old to the new To make it last - you gotta stay true It's not a game or a fuckin trend Those who are true - are here to the end 4 comments|post comment

[25 Mar 2004|09:00pm] [ music | xdeathstarx-vocal test ] hey wats going on people? damn not alot with some people have been bugging me to update so here i go.... ive been up to nothing just school and hanging out with friends.. something interesting happend two nights ago i talked to someone i stopped talking to and that i wanted to reallly talk to but its kinda weird now well just see how that goes..tomorrow friday im gonna chill wiht a friend then go chill with my other friends.this weekend is gonna be weak im expecting something ally better send it.. well i dont know wat else to say i wish someone i know could listen to this and just stop somethings.... Look at what your throwing away What it all could have been Squandered hopes and broken dreams Expectations abandoned and burned away But your not burning away Your not burning away Don’t walk away from me If you could only see, who you truly are Just stand with me through another day I promise one thing, that you can have it again Feel it again We’ll walk away from the edge of apathy And I'll walk away with you We'll walk away with the strength of sobriety 3 comments|post comment

[12 Mar 2004|11:12pm] [ mood | thoughtful ] [ music | DEATH THREAT- DEAD AT BIRTH ] here i am at home thinking about shit but whatever here are some lyrics that i relate to right now. i cant wait till BANE,Facedown fest and terror. peace Done... my memories of better days still stand in my way because no matter what i say i still play your game. the frustration of wanting things that you cant see. and its hurting you but its killing me, its feeding my disbelief. and i take back all that ive done. i cant take back, whats done is done. ive seen the pain in your face, the pain in your eyes. its no surprise to me, i see what ive done wrong. no sense in holdin on, now standin side by side, i hope i tried. i realize its the end of our time, the end of our lives together. now theres no words left for me to say cuz i know that things wont change. and theres nothin left to rearrange, all thats left is the memory. i cant take back all that ive done. and theres nothin left for me to say because whats done is done Waste of time Wasted my time, you wasted your time on me Let’s face the facts that we must break clean Fucked with my mind, I was too blind to see So I waited patiently I will not stand by and try I cannot be by your side You drained the life out of me Livin’ in such misery Life is not kind, people are filled with greed You are no exception, you were no friend to me Fucked with my mind Took my self esteem and I waited anxiously What did you mean, you said you said you cared for me I was so naïve, I let you walk all over me I’ve gained courage, now I am So better off without you in my life You sold me out and through it all you fuckin’ Wasted my time. I’ve realized through all your lies you did not think too much of me You helped yourself and did not think to offer me your company The hurt inside will heal in time and that’s the price I have to pay And that’s just fine, I’ve done my time and now I’m glad to walk away cause after all, you fuckin’ wasted my time 13 comments|post comment

[03 Mar 2004|08:45pm] [ mood | annoyed ] [ music | 100 demons-time bomb<<<Fucken ILL ] yo wats craking peeps fuck man i am bored and fucken pissed i cant go to the show tomorrow cause of my fucken dad hes is being such an ass fuck that shit i might just leave im not sure i know if i do im fucked but i dunno man school is soo boring i came home today and i did a shit load of work i need to keep it going like that. haha i also found compalation cd with some bands ive never heard before and they are fucken ILL.. well i got nothing more to say FUCK !! peace 1 comment|post comment

FUCK!!! [27 Feb 2004|11:10pm] This pain for you i suffer... I just want to scream, scream in someone's face. I don't want to see anything, nothing at all. I need to get away from everything. Everything in my pathitic life. How can they say for live life for something when i don't live for anything? It's like this world is out to get me, what the fuck did i do? There's no emotion, there's no soul, so what should i do? I haven't been this angry in my life, so why now? Is there some reason behind this shit in my life??? Was i ever amount to anything? Some people sure don't think so. I grew to learn that life is nothing but pain. Pain i fucken suffer for you and everyone else. This is my place in life, so be it... "This isn't about any certain person, for certain people, it's about life, my life..." 1 comment|post comment

[24 Feb 2004|09:21pm] [ mood | cranky ] [ music | TERROR ] yo yo wats craking people ?i havent updated in a while cause ive been lazy and well not alot has been going on well there has but nothing i want to talk about.. on saturday i went to allisons bbq it was chill but the rain killed it so then we headed to the hoods show which was brutal but i really didnt enjoy it cause i was burnt i missed folsom cause my ride was a lagg but oh well i never got to meet ash but i will at another show..and this week really nothing i just got to step it up doing work cause im am fucking around too much doing nothing and its not worth so i got to get to doing some work.. damn i am sooo confused about somethinga and i dont know what i should do i as some of my friends but they dont know aahhhh its hopeless but i guess thigs are ment to be this way...i acnt wait till MARCH 4TH TERROR, SHATTERED REALM, BORN FROM PAIN, FIRST BLOOD ,INTERNAL AFFAIRS, AND THE PROMISE where someone is bound to get knocked the fuck out hope its not me its gonna be a good one cant wait release some anger i hope.. well im out later 2 comments|post comment

[16 Feb 2004|11:30am] my comp is not service so i cant read anything update when i get it back sorry later 1 comment|post comment

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